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Were this an entry written a year ago, I would've been bored, pissy, and out of things to say.
Were this two years ago, I would've been unbelievably depressed, and showing it via morose poetry I borrowed from Jessica, or by casually understating how broke, how lonely, or how despairing I was. But this is an entry now, which means I am going to make a point, albeit a bit self-seriously. I swear, I have a point.
It's that I changed, that people change. Everything I have written here, and tellingly, in my private, off-and-on, paper diary, has been cognizant of a reader; I am frankly, a bit tired of that shit. I am just as tired of going back and castigating myself for whatever flaw I see in the old me, recorded in these pages.
So, in short, I will try not to write here much anymore. I have promised it to too many of you, but I will try to be a good letter writer. I will leave notes. I will read your entries dutifully, and probably butt in. But the way Livejournal structured my real, lived life, I think wasn't the best thing. The letter seems the medium most appropriate to the way I have actually changed in the last seven years: I feel now, for the first time in my life, capable of honest, giving friendship with others. Baby steps, you know?